8.27.2010

Checking In

I am still here and I hope that you are still reading! 

I must admit to foolishly thinking that I would be able to update the blog in all of my "free" time.  But I am quickly realizing that such a thing doesn't really exist anymore.  Or rather, it does, but the free time time that I do have is spent _________ -ing.  Fill in the blank with any household chore, personal maintenance routine or general reigning in of my scattered brain - in short, not so much blogging.


With that, I wanted to drop in to say "hi" and to tell you how much I am loving being a mom.  I may tell you a different story in the middle of the night when I have used all my "tricks" to calm the missus and nothing is working, or when I have changed a diaper for the third time in one sitting or when I am in the grocery store with a fussy little one and people are giving me horrid looks, ahem.  But don't let that fool you.  I really do love it!


I love the way she smells.  I love the way she sleeps with her hands up over her head.  I love the way in which she grips her pacifier for dear life when she is stressed.  I love when she stretches after a long nap with a pouty lip and a furrowed brow.  I love how she falls asleep in the nook of my neck and shoulder.  I love how she looks in her newborn onesies with her diaper peeking out.  I love how she sleeps through the vacuum, the washing machine and my hair dryer (really - I love this because otherwise I would not be able to get anything done).  I love to watch her littlest tummy rise and fall in irregular patterns when she sleeps.  I love her "parachute" reflex (putting her hands straight up in the air) when she feels like she is falling.  I love the way her lip quivers when she dreams.  I love her smile, even if it is just gas.  I love every inch of this 6 lbs 8 oz. muffin, from her toes to the little blond hairs on her head.  I love how soft her skin is and even better, when I get to feel it against my chest when I am rocking her goodnight.  I love how Chris loves her.  I love how he melts my heart when I see them together.  I love how we have started a family and how we are going through this journey together.  I love that even when I feel I may not be doing a good job or when I desperately need a break or when I feel as though I could not be any more frustrated, that I ultimately want her back.  I can't wait to see her in the morning, I spend hours watching her sleep and I miss her when she is in the back seat of the car.  I love this little girl and feel very blessed for what we have!


One day soon I might blog about something other than her, but not today.  Or next week.  Or probably even next month.  She is our world now and I'm not sure I will ever be able to go back...

6 comments:

Amanda @ Bits & Pieces said...

Awww, Tiff, so sweet. You guys are the perfect little family right now, I love it.

Russ and Kara said...

So happy for you! I loved reading your post. You are very much in love and it's so sweet to read about. Keep enjoying all the little moments.

When you wrote that you miss her when she's in the back seat, I can so relate to that! That's the part I miss the most when the pregnancy is over. For 40 weeks you have been so connected with this little baby that even a few feet feels unnatural.

The Smaellies said...

Any mother totally understands you post. Little babies are a blessing and definitely a lot of work, but like you said, worth it.

I am glad you are enjoying motherhood and whenever you get back to blogging, I will be reading :)

Foisy said...

Totally still reading! I love that you are able to put into words what some less articulate folks (me) feel but can never express well. Prefect! Congrats again!

Dana said...

I definitely teared up and got the chills reading this. You are a fantastic mother already! I am so happy for you guys. I will have to come meet the little one soon (hopefully).

melhuff said...

Aww all that description of her and no picture?? Love that you guys are doing so great and happy early birthday to you! ;)