Through this crazy web of blogland, I ended up participating in a new blog that someone else started. You can read more about it (and even participate if you would like) HERE.
The purpose of this blog is to highlight people 5 questions at a time, giving everyone a chance to learn more about the real you. As we all know, blogs can sometime feel a bit...unreal at times, don't you think?
I prefer not to think of my blog as fake by any means, but I do admit to posting mostly positive things for people to read. After all, blogging is something I choose to do for fun. I also like to maintain some sense of privacy for me and my family...
But, because I am a sucker for some good self reflection, I thought that I would answer the questions and share them with you today. Hope you enjoy and happy Friday!
What scares you the most? The thought of losing my husband without notice scares me the most. I truly love him with all of my heart but some of the words that come out of my mouth can be so harsh. What's worse is that I often go about my day without making amends. Sometimes I get so caught in my tracks that I have to call and say how sorry I am for the paralyzing fear that he would be taken from me without notice. I cannot imagine the personal guilt I would forever hold on myself if something like this were to happen nor could I imagine him leaving without knowing how much I love, care for and need him.
Where do you see yourself in 10 years? Honestly, in 10 years, I see myself scared to death. I will be 35 at that point and will most likely be finished having any more kids, which is one thing that I have always looked forward to. I think I will be conflicted with the next "big thing" in my life. What will make me excited at 35? Of course I will have the joy of seeing my family grow up, but I fear that I will settle into the status quo, lose sight of me, and become complacent in my day to day routine. I don't necessarily want to stay home forever. At 35, I will still have many years to live up to my potential (what exactly that is, I am not sure) but I hope that I will have the drive to do so. There are still many places in the world that I would like to see. I would like to continue to use my creativity in a way that impacts others. I want to be successful in being a mom and wife and a friend. In short, I do not want to become trapped but rather inspired 10 years from now.
What is something (almost) no one knows about you? I had breast reduction surgery senior year of high school. One of the hardest (and best) decisions I have ever made. Having a baby on the way, however, has made me keenly aware that my decision will have an impact on our children.
What is the one thing you wish everyone knew about you? That I was quite lonely growing up and it has made a surprisingly large impact on my life now. From loving and needing my alone time to wanting to have our kids close in age, there are several ways in which growing up feeling like an only child has impacted me. I am also very independent and have no problem doing things on my own; often times I prefer it.
What is your guilty pleasure? Some sort of sweet after EVERY meal and Ice Cream EVERY night :)